July 5th

So I miss Ginnie at work a lot! It’s just not the same without her.  Barbara is with me this week.  She sure gets the job done she is literally an energizer bunny when it comes to getting things accomplished in claims, it’s insane!  She sure puts my work to shame haha.  Today at work while I was boxing up some books I couldn’t help but open up this one called “ So long insecurity”.  I couldn’t put it down, every page had impressive and intriguing thoughts.  I wrote down a few things from it that I loved.  There wasn’t much time because I had to continue on with work but I jotted down what I could.  The main topic was insecurities hence the title.  Insecurities are something we all struggle with every day.  I know I struggle with this constantly.  I have thoughts like “ I am not as talented as this person” or “ I am not as smart…. _____ fill in the blank”.  It can be anything.  It is so easy to compare to other people, but today I stopped and asked the question why?  Why do I compare myself to another human who is just as imperfect as I am.  Why can’t I just find complete satisfaction in the Lord? He is all I need.  This is something I will continue to pray for.  I pray that God gives us eyes to see each other clearly and to give us hearts that overflow with compassion rather than comparison.  When we allow God’s truth to eclipse every false positive and let our eyes spring open to the treasure we have, there in his glorious reflection we will also see the treasure we are and the beauty of the Lord our God will be upon.  This book also touched on the topic of control.  ( quote from book ) “ Although humans can’t attain total power, knowing that fact hasn’t kept us from trying.  The most we can successfully achieve is excessive control… people who are chronically insecure often have an overwhelming tendency to become control freaks.  Upon serious consideration that inclination makes perfect sense.  We feel most secure when our environment is in control, and since no one is able to control it to our satisfaction, we decide we have to do it ourselves.  If someone would do it and do it right, we wouldn’t have to take over, so it’s not really our fault, we reason.  It is our responsibility.  An insecure person’s greatest need for control is directed toward those who have the most potential to either threaten her security or strengthen it.  

God offers anything and everything we need.  We can all find peace and rest in that.  He loves us more than anyone is capable of, and he looks upon us with favor.  He sees us as beautiful masterpieces that he created.